I had this conversation with a friend the other day.
Friend: "I don't know, I'm just a peaceful person. I take life as it comes. God will take care of it."
Me: REALLY? (recalling the shouting match I lost with the Almighty just moments before.) What's the secret?
Friend: I'm just wired for serenity.
(That must come in handy)
I had to go. I don't have space in my life for delusional people.
To be fair-she really is like that. Anyone who spends that much time on their knees deserves the serenity she possesses and I want to be her when I grow up. Or tomorrow.
I want to be a good representation of who He is. Now. When I say I trust Him I want that to be true all the time. When I say He's my everything I want there to be no doubt. When I say I'm sure of His love for me, I want to live like someone who is loved unconditionally by eternal love.
And I think it starts with trusting God today. By giving Him what we can give him. By trusting Him first with what's in our hearts today. By remembering we are always somewhere between the dreaming and the coming true. Learning, growing, trusting, stretching. It's maddeningly necessary to mess up on the way to figuring it all out.