I love that God is relational. I love that He wants us to choose Him. He could have easily put a spiritual chip in us (if you will) and gotten perfect people worshiping Him to perfection. Instead-He made humans. There's one of the great mysteries if you ask me.
Lately I've had more than one encounter with submissive humility. My attitude about said things has pretty much been, "So what." I don't feel like doing them. I don't feel like separating out relationships into little boxes where you have to behave one way in one situation and completely differently in another. At the end of the day when I replay the scenarios I seriously thing, SO WHAT!
And unfortunately this attitude has found it's way into my spiritual life as well. It is absolutely frightening to me how quickly one can fall out of a close relationship with the Lord. It starts so small. We miss a few morning devotions. We're too tired to pray at the end of the day. We don't take one concern to Him and then we get out of the habit of sharing our days with Him. We miss church because someone hurt our feelings or it's easier not to go and before you know it it's been a month. SCARY!
God has been pressing into my heart lately that yes, He created us to have a choice. BUT, once we've made that choice then we need to live seriously the decision we've made. We need to live intentionally. God sent His Son to die so that we could be in communion with the trinity. Perfect Holy Communion with the triune God. It's a free gift and heaven knows we can't earn it, but we can live in such a way that we are grateful people in love with a perfect God.
My excuses fall flat. I'm too tired, too lazy, too discouraged, too whatever to spend time with the Creator? I'm too hurt, too empty, too frustrated, too anxious, too whatever to fall on the chest of my Father to let Him take His child's heart and restore it in Him? If I can take the liberty to put a human face on the Lord just for a minute, I can picture Him saying to each and every one of my excuses-So what.
Some days I'm more committed to keeping my local Starbucks open than my relationship with the Lord. It's sad, but it's really true. I get my car waxed more often than I spend in meditation on scripture. Most days I get every single item checked off my usually lengthy to do list, but I may or may not get to my devotions. I answer every single e-mail, face book notification and twitter update, but am I answering the call of my God on each and every day? Am I stopping to ask Him what I can do for Him and be in Him in this day? Sometimes yes. Mostly not.
And that stops here.
It's time for me to make the Lord priority ONE no matter what else has to go by the wayside. It's time for me to say to my excuses-SO WHAT. It's time to take the Lord seriously. These are serious days. People need the Lord and people need good examples of what it means not to be perfect, but to be in love with a perfect God.
I want to be that person, that Child of God, that Believer in Christ and that committed to a God that never once has been less than 100% committed to me.
He's worth it.