To be held

It's been a crazy roller coaster of a life relationship with the Lord the past few weeks and I wouldn't trade it for anything. Don't you just love when He shows up in the dailiness of life? I love when I'm not expecting Him to be a big part of whatever I'm doing and then without warning He takes center stage. He shows up and in a moment everything changes.

It's nothing major. It's daily! But here are some examples of His faithfulness to this little life lately.

Last week I was driving home from work and was stressing. I don't live in an extravagant neighborhood. I just live in a normal neighborhood, cul de sac, regular people with regular families living a regular life. BUT, for whatever reason they are OBSESSED with lawn care. Whoever the president of our home owner's association is currently can count me OUT for voting for him next time. Seriously, if your lawn becomes a centimeter above what it's supposed to I can just about stick my hand out the door and pick up the warning letter. It's ridiculous. I want to live in a nice neighborhood, I think you should take care of your lawn but seriously.

So, I was driving home wondering how in the world I was ever going to get my yard mowed that week. It takes 2 hours plus trimming, weeding, and edging none of which I find particularly interesting enough to do a great job. I was trying to figure it out and finally I just said to the Lord, "I can't make it work this week and I need your help." I feel certain that the One who keeps the world spinning had bigger things on the table than my lawn but He said, "Come to me." He didn't say come to me when you have something worthy of my time! So, I did. I came to Him.

I got home and was getting rid of some shelving in my garage. My neighbor across the street came over with her little girl and asked if she could have the shelving. Definitely. So she took it home and came back and offered to pay me for it. Nope. You can have it. She thanked me and left. About a half hour later her husband came over. He said, "I so appreciate the shelving. If you'll let me I'd love to mow your lawn this weekend in exchange. It would be my pleasure. As a matter of fact if you'd let me I'd love to mow your lawn every time it needs it. You can pay me or not pay me. I'd just like to do it."

I could have cried. You do not understand what a race it is for me to get my lawn mowed before I get in trouble! Plus it's a million degrees and I have ZERO extra time in a week. Jesus, you amaze me with your attention to detail and the care and concern you have for this life! THANK YOU!

Just this week I've had the privilege of watching the Lord fix a friendship, give me the grace and strength to end one, and have an amazing wisdom filled conversation with my pastor that changed a lot of things. I feel like I've fallen at His feet a million times a day just to say, "you show up and help me or we're going down!" And He has. Over and over and over again.

And my new prayer is that I wouldn't miss the opportunity to see Him at work. These are just the instances I've noticed. I feel certain there are countless more that I have taken for granted.

We do not have to live this life on our own. We do not have to have all the answers. All we need is Him.

I have said over and over again lately that I need concentrated time with the Lord in these seasons so this time I'm going to do it! I'm giving God the next 30 days as a sort of spiritual boot camp. I'm committed to spending time with Him every day, focusing on prayer and meditation and plan to journal every day about the experience. I can almost physically feel my soul crying out for more of Him and it's a cry I don't dare ignore. More than my next breath, more than my next step, more than anything - I need Him.

And the great news is, when we call to Him He promises to answer. Every time. I can't wait to hear what He has to say.

Have a great weekend :)